this is camilla's attempt at a little spritzer...

to pizza, love cat. thanks for the optimism?

http://www.camillacombs.blogspot.com/

My nephew drew a succession of pictures and gifted them 

ever so thoughtfully to me...

This one was included

When I asked what it was he said:

"IT'S YOU, IN VERY DEEP WATER"

Thanks for not letting me forget Kade

"A First Sign of the Beginning of Understanding is the Wish to Die." 

— Franz Kafka

dream a little dream of me..........what a disaster. 

Killer Whale 
To see a killer whale in your dream, indicates that you need to be more social or more vocal about something. Step up and speak up. Alternatively, the dream symbolizes spiritual guidance. You are ready to explore your emotions, but you need to make the connection between the conscious and unconscious aspects of yourself.

Shark 
To see a shark in your dream, indicates feelings of anger, hostility, and fierceness. You are undergoing a long and difficult emotional period and may be an emotional threat to yourself or to others. Perhaps, you are struggling with your individuality and independence, especially in some aspect of your relationship. Alternatively, a shark represents a person in your life who is greedy and unscrupulous. This person goes after what he or she wants with no regards to the well-being and sensitivity of others. Underwater 
To dream that you are underwater, suggests that you are being overcome with emotions and are in over your head regarding some situation. You need to gain greater control of your life. To dream that you are breathing underwater represents a retreat back into the womb. You want to return to a state where you were dependent and free from responsibilities. Perhaps you are feeling helpless, unable to fulfill your own needs and to care for yourself. Alternatively, breathing underwater is analogous to being submerged in your own emotions.

Cave 
To see or dream that you are in a cave symbolizes the womb and thus signify refuge, protection and concealment. To dream that you are walking in a dark cave represents an exploration of your unconscious mind. It signals self-discovery.

Walls 
To see a wall in your dream, signifies limitations, obstacles and boundaries. There is a barrier obstructing your progress. Alternatively, the wall indicates that you are too accustomed to your old habits and way of thinking. You feel stuck. To dream that you are building a wall refers to a bad relationship or childhood trauma. You are trying to keep others out for fear of getting hurt again. 

*side note: who's seen Spellbound? huh, huh? if not, it's a must. 

another excuse to not commit suicide

The Hunter Gracchus 

by Franz Kafka

This reminded me that your misery follows you....

"Should I kill myself, or have a cup of coffee?" 

— Albert Camus