fall into the gap.....    

    

shut up......

dear shark speed:


thanks for providing the repetitious beat from band practice, no doubt, that creeps into our house every time....that helped me zonk for 35 min. in the tub... i've not been sleeping well and 35 min.zzzzzzzzz(s) are good zzzzzzzz(s). i'm sure you were just tryna get it right.....psychedelic peace jam. god bless. 


xo

this is camilla's attempt at a little spritzer...

to pizza, love cat. thanks for the optimism?

http://www.camillacombs.blogspot.com/

get it...

kelsey, one of my besties, is currently in a masters program for spiritual psychology at the University of Santa Monica. 
she's much better at taking care of me long-distance than i am of taking care of her. 
she's beautiful. and. she's my therapy. 
anyway, she just sent along a little gem. her friend from class, carly margolis is gifted. 
what i mean:
charming band. she and her boyfriend. learn how to be free. 
also. she makes gorgeous thought-provoking jewelry. fresh. 

you gotta see this stuff:    allforthemountain.com

i have too many favorites to mention. i'm grateful for inspiring people. 

listening...

014: The Velvet Underground
Loaded 
[Cotillion/Atlantic; 1971]

Though Lou Reed might be more widely remembered for some of the most provocative and contentious experimental rock of the 20th century, his influence stretches equally far within the rock 'n' roll mainstream. A spot-on portent of Reed's vibrant solo career, Loaded witnesses The Velvet Underground emerging from the druggy maw of their late-60s work to pen some of the best vanilla rock anthems of the era, with the typically reticent Doug Yule assuming a more conspicuous role. The album is staggering not for its consistency, diversity, or technical proficiency-- something the band came to stylize-- but for the ardor and joie de vivre with which it explores the capacious boundaries of its form.

Sadly, Loaded often comes recommended with one glaring stipulation: "It's a good starting point, if you're looking to get into them." But the album is too good to be relegated to sub-intellectual standing; from the dripping tongue-in-cheek melancholy of "Who Loves the Sun", to the sultry narrative swagger of "Sweet Jane" and "Rock & Roll", to the maudlin-but-oh-so-irresistible "Oh! Sweet Nuthin'",Loaded proves the Velvets top-shelf geniuses with a vocabulary fit for the hoi polloi. It's here that they finally chose to break the din of their histrionic, often difficult 60s triumvirate, striking the hot iron of rock in a transitory period-- and what a way to do it. --Sam Ubl

via: pitchfork.com

drought

its no secret that I tend fall into the right brained, feeling category, as opposed to the logic that drives leftys. Having said that, I must say that I have probably never been in a greater rut creatively. That is what I'm supposed to do, yes? Since the mercury retrograde is finally over, I really need to focus on getting it back, whatever "it" is.... 

(also, catch this episode of radio west on KUER. Someone actually mentions the "The Creative Habit")

This what I came up with:

battle stress, and maintain general emotional health--exercise, yoga, meditation are all a given. I've long since discovered movement to hold a key to creative expression. Patchouli, lavender, grapefruit, jasmine, all good for stress. Also, frankincense and lavender are good for panic attacks. 

I've been trying to squeeze in this book, during "breaks". Who else would know better right? Twyla Tharp suggests developing a ritual, something that essentially signals to your body, "ok, I'm ready to work." I haven't gotten far in this book, (although it's a super easy and delightful enough read) but I'm listening Twyla ok? you have my attention. 

structure. Another important idea for Tharp. I am 25 years old, it's time to be ok with this idea. I've been poisoned to think that structure is somehow equal to an inclosed cell, a yawn. I'll start small....

write everyday. I always hear this from any voice that has every given advice. Of course, a given. This is hard form me, it stems from a fear of commitment perhaps? How else are you supposed to generate fuel from the gods without giving them something to dote on?

baths. I do take baths regularly. I'll keep doing this. I've somehow managed to give my baths permission to relax me. 

dodge self-criticism. This very well may be the key. I don't know what it is, but I think I've opened my soul up a little too much perhaps? Everything idea that I get is then put on trial, with no energy to dispute my own solid verdict. It all must go.

a new goal: don't shy away from minimalism. Thanks to a conversation with emmy earlier this evening, I got thinking about this approach. I'm fancy. But sometimes it is just too much adornment for such simple words. I also have a problem with action, I prefer a character to sit down and sort out idea after idea in their head. alone. Needless to say, I'm not a very good fiction writer. 

to be continued...... 

accidental perfect playlist

to bid summer adieu:


You are driving... and your shuffling music box gives you a gift that both transcends and nails you to the current flavor of the mood around you, produced by you, following you... School starts this week and there is a lot in the air to digest. So, thank you Universe, for offering a perfect fit. It reminds me of when it became suddenly appropriate to mismatch your attire. Mostly rock and roll mixed with some jazzy feeling tunes and miscellanies.


  1)    sad fuzz Ty Segall
  2)    leave me be The Zombies
  3)    little white lies Deer Tick
  4)    aw shucks, hush your mouth Jimmy Reed
  5)    tres avisos Calexico
  6)   lose your soul Dead Man's Bones
  7)    summertime clothes Animal Collective
  8)    i am trying to break your heart Wilco
  9)    i'm gonna move right in The Velvet Underground
10)    i feel free Cream
11)   yeppers Mattson2
12)    to be Young (is to be sad, is to be high) Ryan Adams
13)    a hard rain's a-gonna fall Bob Dylan
14)   magnolia mountain Ryan Adams & The Cardinals
15)   in your car Ty Segall
16)   inamates of heartache Ariel Pink
17)  ease your feet in the sea Belle & Sebastian 


                                to be continued.....